gotta make this quick cause the computer is about to die. shanea is marrying tim. she has no time... they are planning a wedding so fast you would think it was a shot gun. anyway, small bachelorette/shower for her last night at twigs. i was all alone afterwards! like, no kids.... so i went to her house, even though she wasn't going there and was sorely disappointed that not a soul was home. pulling out of the street and logan and marissa pull up! i literally shrieked in my car with joy. jumped out and went in. chatted for a long time and hal pal came in too! yay!!! time and shanea came home and we talked wedding nights and i confessed about how disappointing and tragic mine was.... anyway. i love logan and marissa so much. they bring sunshine to my soul. i am so glad that i have such an awesome family and that they like spending time with me too. came home with a mosquito bite on my face... only not awesome part.

ace

my darling baby is 16 months old. he is a joy to be around. as a newborn he slept in my bed all the time, but he wasn't a cuddly baby. he was stiff. in the last few months he has turned into the biggest cuddle bug of all my kids. he loves to snuggle. he also has a favorite blankie. it has wooly fur on one side and a grey and white geometric pattern on the other. i think it was really the only gift i picked out special for him for christmas. he loves this blanket. he prefers it above all the others. if it is out of sight he will tolerate another. anyway, tonight we were out past his bedtime. the blanket has been dragged everywhere and it has been a busy couple of days. within the first few minutes of it being out of the dryer there was a huge smear of chocolate on it. it has been dragged all over the dirty floor of the community center, the mall, parking lots, stroller wheels, peoples houses that have animals. i mean everywhere. so tonight as i brought mr. sleepy in from the car i threw the blanket in the hallway in a pile of soon to be cleaned laundry. i changed ace, put on jammies, gave him medicine (teething pain), and went to rock him to sleep, as i sat down i grabbed a new blankie and said something about getting a nice clean blanket for him. he got down from my lap and walked into the hallway, it was dark. ace's bedroom is in the basement so at night when all the lights are off there isn't a trace of brightness. he hesitated at the threshold and then barreled down the hallway and came toddling back in with the beloved blanket. i let him fall asleep with it and sneaked in just now to throw it in the wash. i love him. i just love him.

i am sitting her writing in the dark. it has been a great summer. we have done so many fun and amazing things and i am so happy about it. with that said can i also admit that i am ready for school to start? i am ready to be back into a schedule and ready for my kids to go and learn! yes, kids! jovi is probably going to preschool this year. which sort of makes my heart ache, and leap for joy at the same time. my little family is good. shanea is getting married to tim. kate and drew are finally engaged. ace is walking everywhere. my mom keeps getting pnemoniana and she keeps taking pills, but it seems like that is never going to change. i have accepted that it isn't going to change. kevin is here visiting from hawaii. unfortunately the reason he came back is that becky has cancer. i signed brad and i up for a co-ed softball team for the fall, which is totally out of my comfort zone. but i am trying to be more daring. i think it is good for me. it makes me less scared of doing things that are unfamiliar. anyway. i just wanted to do a little update. we went to downata hot springs the other weekend with logan and hallie and marissa, sally and her kids came up for a night too. it was so much fun. i want to do it every single year.