man, i am bored

brad went on a camping trip this weekend and there is only so much you can do to fill up nap time. i am a little lonely and this week has been a little hard. good things happened but it seems like there were little things that made it difficult. i realize when brad is gone how much stress he relieves from my day that i completely take for granted. especially since he has been home. he really does a lot with reese and plays with him and indulges him. lately i just don't feel like i have the patience or the energy. reese is such a sweet boy, but i think he has finally hit the terrible twos. he really knows how to push my buttons and some days i feel like i am lecturing him more than showing him my love. it's kind of sad. but kind of true. last night he woke up twice in the night, that is the first time he has woken up at all since he moved downstairs. once was to go potty (also a first) and once, i think he said he was going to throw up. but he tells me that every day. so i think he just needed a little love.
school starts soon and i am a little nervous. brad is going to be taking trax down to the U, taking 18 credit hours. and i am still going to weber 1/2 time. i am nervous because i am due to have this baby near the end of the semester and i am scared she will come early and i will lose all motivation and drop all of my classes. i am also a little worried about brad burning himself out. 18 credit hours is so much work. i am just hoping that he can find a part time job up on campus that will allow him to get some of the home work done. oh yeah, and help pay the bills.... i still haven't found out what i will be awarded for student loans and grants. brad did and it's not enough for our family to live on. it's a little scary going into so much debt in so little time. but i am praying it will be worth it.
on the up side we are getting a lot of projects done around our house. our kitchen cabinets are pretty much finished. brad is going to tile the bathroom before he goes back to school (we only bought the tile 2 years ago!), the baby room is painted, i am working on the quilt for her crib, and reese's room is done. not to mention all the furniture we have update by painting. one day i will put pictures up of all these projects. one day. does anyone read my blog anymore? it would be interesting to know. have a good day. i miss you.